Shop Mobile More Submit  Join Login
About Deviant ChristyFemale/United States Groups :iconthetwinearthclub: TheTwinEarthClub
Recent Activity
Deviant for 5 Years
Needs Core Membership
Statistics 291 Deviations 11,548 Comments 17,856 Pageviews

Newest Deviations

Random Favourites

deviation in storage by NinjaKato



XyAckhart has started a donation pool!
10 / 100

You must be logged in to donate.
  • Joe-Maccer
    Donated Apr 1, 2015, 12:17:39 PM
  • random-neko-chan
    Donated Jul 30, 2013, 4:06:39 PM


I know this is  a big question, and a lot of you might just say "I don't know", but could you hear me out?

I'm feeling really stressed right now. Schoolwork has been tougher this year than any other because I'm taking three studio classes at once (which is something that even upperclassmen advise against at my school). I'm getting closer and closer to my big huge ~PORTFOLIO REVIEW~ which, if I pass, will allow me to start taking actual graphic design classes and I can OFFICIALLY say I'm a graphic design student. And I keep thinking about how I have to write this letter of intent and basically write out WHY I want to be a graphic designer. Which is fine, I've been thinking about it for a while and I've been pretty solid on the idea... except now, ironically.

I've got a REALLY tough teacher this semester, and I know that's just something little and it shouldn't discourage me, but we have to do these essays every week and every time I sit down at my desk to start brainstorming about what I want to write about (like I'm supposed to be doing right now), the more there's this voice at the back of my head saying "I DON'T CARE".
Which is not good. I'm supposed to be doing this for a career, you know? I have to care.

But back to the actual point of this journal.. I feel like I need a mentor of some kind. Someone who knows about Graphic Design and can tell me a little more about the field and maybe what I can do with it. Because I'm feel discouraged and that's not good. I'm at a time in my life where I should be putting all my strength in and be motivated more than ever. I wish I could go to my design/typography teacher because it seems like she's a well of knowledge when it comes to this subject but she also just seems like... not the nicest person? She's really strict, she works us to death with homework, and I'm sure if I asked her questions like this she would say something like "look it up for yourself, do some research" in a slightly condescending way that teachers do...

And... it's just very unfortunate. That there was a a really good friend of the family that was a great artist. She was best friends with my dad and loved hanging out with us even though we didn't see each other often. Well some time ago, maybe 3 or 4 years ago? I started going to her house more often because I was starting to realize I wanted to take art seriously, like for a career. She was a Graphic Designer and I wanted to learn from her. She was very intelligent, she was fun to hang around, but honestly... I did more hanging out than learning when I was with her. When I brought up things like "could I help you with anything? Could I work under you? Or maybe just learn from you?" She seemed hesitant.. she would say "I don't really have any big projects going on right now..."
She seemed perfectly healthy to me, and not that old at all, but suddenly she was in the hospital, and she passed away last year December. I'm feeling particularly mournful about it now because I feel like I need someone like her to be my teacher, PARTICULARLY in this time in my life. Is it selfish of me to wish she was still here?

Nonetheless, I need to look somewhere for some kind of help. I want to make sure that this is what I want to do with my life. My current teacher is having me second-guess so much, but I don't want to do all my soul-searching all over again... Maybe I just need an upperclassmen or professional that would be willing to talk to me.

I know this is all really personal, I never post stuff like this. Especially in huge walls of text... But if you did read all of this, thank you so much. If you have nay suggestions, even something little, please let me know.


XyAckhart's Profile Picture
United States
Picture drawn by :iconninjascrag:

requests: maybe (you can ask but I may be busy)
art trade: yeah I like art trades (you can ask but I may be busy)
commissions: no (I don't want yo money!)

but don't be afraid to ask! :D I won't bite I swear!

so yeah in a nutshell i'm a little lazy and not THAT good but I love drawing so I do it anyway!

Current Residence: Fl
Favourite genre of music: Vocaloid and Touhou arranges
Favourite style of art: Anime
Favourite cartoon character: TOO MANY TO NAME OH GAWD

Adopt account: :iconxy-adopts: (not very active yet xD)

follow my artblog plz~ <3


Aqua's Journal, February- maybe ghost types were a bad idea.
I've been going in and out of Mt, Pyre, having to leave periodically to heal up because of the ghost types that frequent the place, and not to mention trainers...
The people there have told me, "You can come and go as you please, but don't stay here too late into the night, and don't fall asleep here."
And usually I've been going back to Lilycove or my own secret base at night, but last night I had fallen asleep at a nearby route, since I had been training pokemon late into the night, especially my weakest member, Parsee.

I had the worst dreams ever. My friends left me, I kept getting lost, all these people trying to find me (some real bad people too) and... monsters, some just watching me in the distance, and others trying to attack me...... so creepy!!!
I woke up, feeling both terrified and mentally drained. And saw... Parsee, my Shuppet, staring back at me.
It has pretty bad insomnia, and while shuppet can't put people to sleep, they can certainly mess with your dreams. Especially because they're creatures that feed off of the insecurities and negative feelings of others.

As cute as she is, maybe I should put her in the box for a little while...
(comment/reblog if you agree)
Aqua's Journal- January
Happy New Year! 
Lilycove is so much fun! I ran into Ruby again and had a great battle with him! (Good this his Pokemon doesn't have the Nuzlocke virus... heheh..)
Anyway, he said he was gonna go back home. He's more focused on completing the Pokedex but... I'm still headstrong in my goal of getting the gym badges and challenging the Pokemon League! And I'm glad I have friends that believe in me!

Hm.. but speaking of Lilycove, there's a lot of Team Aqua grunts here. I wonder what they're up to... but I heard someone say something about Mt. Pyre...

So I guess I will go back to Mt Pyre soon, but not before I go to the department store one last time and have a shopping spree! I definitely need some cool secret base stuff and neat accessories for my Pokemon Team! Yay~
Aqua's Journal, December-
It's been an interesting month, exploring all sorts of places! I finished my journey of the sea routes around Dewford, and continued my quest along route 120~

I asked my dad if I was allowed to try to catch another pokemon in Granite Cave, since I heard you could can Sableye or Mawile there. He said that "if a part of a route or location has different pokemon there, then i guess it's fine" though... he seemed really grumpy about it. I guess he doesn't want me catching too many Pokemon but... I can't help it! There are so many cool Pokemon, I wish I had the time to train and love all of them!

Maybe he's right about me not catching too many Pokemon though, I've lost some good friends trying to train them and get them as strong as everyone else.

And today I went to Mt. Pyre near Lilycove, and I knocked out a Shuppet in one shot. I hope I can find another one nearby in the route...

But either way, I can't wait to get to Lilycove! Maybe I'll make it there in time to stay at an inn for Christmas, and not have to jump back and forth between different trainer's secret bases...
Aqua's Journal, November-
Ah!! I totally forgot to update this! Silly me... I guess I left off with Lissa joining me, right? Well a lot happened since then!
First of all, I caught a BUNCH of new Pokemon! (Even though Dad is worried about Nuzlocke affecting my Pokemon, and wants me to only catch 1 Pokemon per route, I still explored a lot!)

I guess the first interesting thing that happened was getting to Fortree City. What a neat place! The gym leader, Winona, is a flying type gym... but using Toph and Izanagi, fighting her was a BREEZE~ (hehe)

I also ran into Steven Stone! He gave me a Blazikenite for Ace, so now he's SUPER strong!  What a nice gift~

I could of continued from there to Lilycove, but... I really have been itching to go explore the sea since I've gotten the HM Surf. So I went back to explore ALL the sea between Slateport and Dewford! I've been hopping around to different little islands and battling trainers. But don't worry! I have the HM fly now, so I can just swing back to Slateport or Dewford when I need to restock or give my swimming Pokemon a break~
So I guess I was having so much fun out at sea that I've forgotten to write. I can't believe almost a whole month passed! But I can't rush journeys like this, or my Pokemon might become too exhausted... But I'm in Sea Mauville now, AKA The Abandoned Ship! It's got a really mystical atmosphere, I'd love to make someplace like this my hideout!

Anyway, sorry for the long entry! I'll try to stay more up-to-date from now on~

AdCast - Ads from the Community



Add a Comment:
RunexBunny Featured By Owner Apr 16, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the watch c:
XyAckhart Featured By Owner Apr 22, 2016
Np friend :)
Happy birthday Xy!!!
XyAckhart Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2015
Omg thank you!! Lol I'm late on the response but thanks!! :D
Allie---Chan Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2015  Professional General Artist
Hi! :D yay I get to follow your DA! <3
XyAckhart Featured By Owner Nov 30, 2015
Yaaayy! :D thank you!
Anira-the-Fox Featured By Owner Nov 18, 2015
thanks so much for the watch uwu
XyAckhart Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2015
no problem! 
Lily-Lucid Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2015   Writer
thanks for the favorite!
XyAckhart Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2015
no problem~
Add a Comment: